This Bitch got Hitched!

Yep, it happened. Yesterday, Matt and I went down to the courthouse and got married. We were officially engaged for a few hours short of one week, as he proposed after my Tuesday yoga class around 8 p.m. and we were married around 5:30. We decided not to post the engagement on Facebook, and I  only told my immediate family. I generally don't like to have a fuss made over me, actually I get really uncomfortable when too much any attention is placed on me. I would have happily gone through this entire experience not telling anyone, quietly slipping the ring on my finger and happily knitting my way to domestic bliss. Part of me also wanted to avoid the sideways glances, the impending questioning, and the assumption I was pregnant considering the short span of our relationship and engagement. Although I knew Matt was the one for me on day 2 that feeling is hard to portray to those who haven't felt it. Then I thought about the conversation we had early in our relationship about being "all in", and I knew this marriage had been in the making months before the engagement. Then I thought to all the lessons I'd learned in the years leading up to meeting Matt and how much I'd grown, and then realized this experience was a lifetime in the making. God had been preparing me for Matt and Matt for me, and placed us in the right place at just the right time.

It wasn't until spilling some of the information at my Yoga Teacher Training that I realized how selfish I was being by not telling anyone, and how ridiculous protecting this happy information was. I got to see how other people could share in the excitement of an engagement, and it was contagious! Although I'm more of the quiet contemplative celebrator I got to see how other people get excited. Friends reached out in very touching ways. There was an out pour of emotion, love, well wishes, and genuine excitement! I got to see the light turn on in others and was feeding off of that excitement.  It brought me back to hearing my sister was engaged to the love of her life,  and when a dear friend had only one ovary and very little chance of having children had conceived twins,  and hearing all of the little stories and moments that happen that allow us the opportunity to pause, and possibly sigh, or scream, or smile ear to ear and share in life's smile miracles.

While all of the details of yesterday will not be shared (yup, I'll be selfish about that) I will share some of the amazing moments I won't forget. Like that the judge's name was Paul Simon, the wedding certificate guy pounding my new husband and saying "look what you got", and the look... the look my husband gave me after saying our vows, and the expansion of love in his eyes that sunk down into the depths of my icy cold heart and allowed me to be myself, completely and unabashedly in the forever of every moment.

So, thank you for sharing, and thank you for everyone who has ever been on this path with me, for making me the woman I am today, thank you to God for giving me Matt, and thank you to Matt for loving me for everything I am, I am so blessed.